Even people who grew up in the kingdom of God still have questions about their place in it. For those who aren’t a rebel or a prodigal, are they automatically the judgmental older brother? What does it mean for them if they are? And if God is happier about the one found sheep than about the ninety-nine others . . . then what if we’re the ninety-ninth?

This book comes through the lens of the author’s own struggles growing up as a Christian with OCD. Through the short story “Henry” — a take on how the Prodigal Son might have gone if there was a middle child — and chapters diving deep into questions of identity, belonging, guilt, and more, But What if I’m the 99th? gives voice to what often goes unasked in the church (and even more often goes unanswered). Biblically grounded and strikingly fresh, this book is a quirky, honest companion on the journey of finding who we are to God.

Each chapter ends with a different sort of question: questions that invite God to untangle some of the hangups and misunderstandings in our lives. These are divided into private questions and questions for group discussion, so that you can go deep with God in any context.

Have you ever wondered . . .

• The Bible says our guilt is gone — but what if I still feel guilty?
• What about when others don’t forgive me?
• What’s the difference between judgment and accountability?
• What’s with that “unforgivable sin” thing?
• If I’m not supposed to be prideful or beat myself up, how should I see myself?
• Am I less important to God because _________?

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